I’ve always been torn between loving you and hating you. You fucked up the burning love I had inside of me and now I have nothing left. I still cry when I think about you. You still make me feel so damn worthless but it’s the best feeling I’ve ever had. The strongest emotions I ever had were with you. They’re gone now. You say you finally understand yourself now? And thought about talking to me for the longest time? Wanted to apologize for everything? My question is…But how do you FEEL? What do you understand about yourself? That I gave my all into loving you? Did you want to talk to me because you felt guilty or because you missed the thought of me? You wanted to apologize but why? I will never love anyone the way I loved you. People defined me by how I loved you, people see me as how you made me. Pathetic, crazy, annoying-call it what you will. I loved you then, I love you now, I will love you forever.
What I said: I appreciate this message a lot but I think I forgave you, and myself, a long time ago. I am not the easiest person to get along with either. After taking a few days to think, I really don’t know what to say other than that… You caught me off guard on this. I hope you’ve been doing okay.